we love who we love

it is becoming
clearer to me now
as time goes on
and I make
the same mistakes
we don't get to choose
who we love in this life
we just do and then
try to replace
the pieces they take

my salvation

don't pray for the salvation
of my soul
wondering where I'll go
when I die
rather
pray for my salvation
from you
for I have loved you
for a while now
and cannot for
the love of God
understand why

the look in your eyes

you said you didn't care anymore
whatever we had
came and went
but when you saw me
there with him
there was a strange look
in your eyes
and I wish my heart
could tell me
what that look
really meant

today

And then there was today
Today
Today
was the first day in a while
where I realized
I'm OK
I'm OK
I'm starting to be OK

you are an ocean

you are an ocean
and all I want
is to sail the storms
inside of you
places uncharted before
but if you are an ocean
then all I am
is a ship
that you wreck
on the shore

goodbye in your eyes

It was when
you were standing there
looking at me that way
that I finally saw
the goodbye in your eyes
and part of me wishes
I hadn't seen it at all
and all of a sudden
I knew
you weren't mine
anymore
if you ever really were
and I wish I had taken longer
to take you in then
you never said a word
but the goodbye in your eyes
said it all
and made anything
I might have said
to stop you
a waste of breath

only you

It seems really unfair

that you carved out

a spot in my stone heart

and sat in it long enough

to smooth the edges

And then you left

and now there is a hole

perfectly shaped

so only you

can fill it