Losing

I knew that stepping aside
So You could step forward
Would be hard
But I didn't know how much
Because losing myself
Feels a lot like losing out
And letting You in
By letting go
Feels a lot like losing control
Finding You
Feels a lot like losing my way
And moving on
Feels a lot like giving up
Sometimes it's so hard to trust You
Because I feel like I'm alone
And leaving everything I've ever known
Is the hardest thing I've had to do
Losing my selfish purpose
Feels a lot like aimlessness
And sometimes seeking You
Feels more like just waiting
Trying to walk in the light
Feels like stumbling in the dark
And for all the certainty I had
Now I'm suddenly unsure
Letting You be my strength
Feels a lot like weakness
Letting You lead the way
Feels like getting left far behind
And having any kind of faith
Leaves me feeling blind
Losing my common sense
Doesn't make sense at all
Giving my heart to You
Feels a lot like breaking my heart
Putting my hope in You
Sometimes feels like despair
Not getting the things I think I need
Makes me wonder if You care
I confess dying to You
Sometimes feels like losing my life
And yet I do
Trusting, hoping, praying,
Losing myself to You
Will make me lose my doubt and fear
And give me more than I could ever dream...