Cigarettes

I watch you quietly
Hoping you won’t see
Hoping you don’t realize
The things you do to me
The smell of cigarettes
Lingers in my head
A faint taste on my tongue
A taste I can’t forget
I had never felt like this
I watched you from a distance
Wondering if you felt it too
If you ever wished this
I always knew you were a bad idea
But one I couldn’t shake
The darkest of my dreams at night
I wanted you to be my sweet mistake
But I know you won’t be mine
It’s nothing but an empty wish
No matter how I might try
It will never be different than it is
I know it’s all a pretty lie
But one I won’t regret
So I drown in your fleeting touch
And the smell of cigarettes

Write For You

I want to know your story
Because I want to know you
Everything about who you are
The only thing I can do
Is write you onto my mind
Where you’ll always stay
I don’t know how to unravel
You and why I feel this way
So I write you on a page
And make your story come alive
Your story isn’t mine to tell
Until I make it my own inside
I know there are parts of you
That I will never know
I will never make it all the way
To the depths of your soul
So leave your taste on my tongue
To linger a little longer
The only thing I have
The rest of you I only hunger
As I write you into my life
Making you a part of me
The closest I will ever be
So empty, so contrived
Further still I fall
But writing you onto my heart
Is better than not having you
At all