Sunday, August 11, 2013

how you know you love someone

You can break me
You know exactly how to do it
know exactly the tender places
the weak ones
the places of me
that aren't all shored up
You know how far to push
and where
You know how hard to hit
to draw blood and tears
You can take this strong body
and tear it apart
with words and blows and meanings
throwing the pieces
so far apart
I’ll never be whole again
You can break me
you know all the ways
to make me fall
when I’m vulnerable
soft and scared
because you’ve seen me these ways
And because of this
I know that I love you
because you can break me
utterly destroy me
But you won’t
no, you hand me a hammer
and some nails, instead

and say, “Let’s build”

Sunday, August 4, 2013

I did not send your letter

I wrote you a letter
things I want to say to you
thoughts I cannot voice
except on blank white sheets
safe here where you can't see
so many things you never knew
but wish I could bring myself
to say to you face-to-face
I wrote them in a letter
one I knew I would not send
but I cannot bear to throw it out
I wrote you a letter
because you never knew
how thoughts of you when I'm here
help to pull me through
I run your words through my head
wonder how many of them you meant
and if you ever realized
how much they meant to me
I told you in a letter
how much I think of you
folded, addressed, and stamped
so you would know I care
But I did not send your letter

maybe I'm a little angry

Your eyes light up
when you tell me
about where you're going to go
that I can't possibly
hold it against you
even though
I don't want you to
But maybe I'm a little angry
that you're leaving me
but I never told you it mattered
You're putting on your uniform
strapping on radio and pistol
I say good luck, not what I wished
I had thought to say
before you leave and walk away
You're taking a little piece of me with you
and never even knew