the look in your eyes

you said you didn't care anymore
whatever we had
came and went
but when you saw me
there with him
there was a strange look
in your eyes
and I wish my heart
could tell me
what that look
really meant

you are an ocean

you are an ocean
and all I want
is to sail the storms
inside of you
places uncharted before
but if you are an ocean
then all I am
is a ship
that you wreck
on the shore

goodbye in your eyes

It was when
you were standing there
looking at me that way
that I finally saw
the goodbye in your eyes
and part of me wishes
I hadn't seen it at all
and all of a sudden
I knew
you weren't mine
anymore
if you ever really were
and I wish I had taken longer
to take you in then
you never said a word
but the goodbye in your eyes
said it all
and made anything
I might have said
to stop you
a waste of breath

I'm not a smoker

I'm not a smoker
I'm just out here
at the smoke pit
with my cigarette
lighting one up
and watching smoke
fade into night sky
not ready yet
to go back inside
I don't tell anyone
I smoke now and then
more now than then
and let it be
our little secret
even though each time
I swear never again
I don't like the taste
of smoke on my tongue
but I like it on yours
and the way it lingers
on your skin
and on mine
long after we let go
I'm not a smoker
but some things
are hard to let go
and we stand out
here in the cold
and you ask
if I want just one more
and when you look at me
that way
what else
could I possibly say
but yes?
Light them up
stare out over the lights
that fade into stars
a dozen unsaid things
pass between us
and disappear
with the smoke
I'm not a smoker
but I will smoke
a thousand more
if it means I can stay here
with you like this
just a little longer